I haven't posted in a while, and though there is much to say, sometimes finding the words to say (or in this case- type) is hard. Not the content of it all, but thoroughly and correctly express what it is I'm truly feeling. Much has happened to me in a very short period of time, plenty bad and plenty good. I had to sort of compartmentalize my emotions, to create some sort of sanity for myself and figure out how to deal with some of the non-happy things that have happened. I know how very lucky I am for having the sort of support that anyone could ever ask for. I'm forever indebted. But one should never ride the sorrow train for too long. You grieve, and then you pick yourself up and move forward with your life. I sometimes struggle with the balancing of staying on track, and well these were just one of those failures that I have to endure. And you know, that is ok. There is absolutely nothing stopping me from changing... there is nothing wrong with starting over, and so it is time.
Tomorrow is a brand new day, and I will gracefully take it on...